When I started this blog with my friend Deb in March 2010, I knew I was finally ready to do whatever it would take to get healthy — not just through weight loss, but through actively facing myself and confronting the issues and dysfunctions that had led to my weight gain in the first place. I was ready to start over as a person in many ways.
I knew it was time to let go of the version of myself that had always succumbed to the misconception of powerlessness. To her, with as much grace and forgiveness as possible, I said goodbye, sayonara, farewell, be at peace. And the new journey began, a journey led by a new version of ME who truly comprehends that the power I have lies in my ability to choose the things that authentically represent me and lead me towards my desired goals and dreams.
And these are my choices…
I will be healthy — body, mind and spirit. I will heal from disappointment and heartbreak. I will dance with a healthy sense of abandon and freedom whenever the urge strikes! I will run and play and be active with my future children. I will get up on stage and sing my heart out feeling bold, jubilant. I will go to the beach and not worry about the imperfections of my body. I will fall in love again, no holds barred, no baggage.
I will make it happen this time.
Choices equal change. I believe that now wholeheartedly. It is no harder or easier for me than it is for anyone else. This blog will help me keep track of my choices, celebrate my victories, and stay focused on my goals!
Here is a list of 25 personal truths and realizations I strive to live by and remember daily! They serve the purpose of keeping me grounded and helping me to stay true to myself and others. Here goes!
1. To trust my instincts. They are bang on most of the time.
2. To give recognition to all the shades of gray that exist quite extensively between black and white.
3. That the most important part of making a difficult choice is sticking to it patiently and giving it all the time needed to be woven into the tapestry of your life.
4. To slow my reaction time.
5. That forgiveness equals liberation.
6. That I am more courageous than I ever gave myself credit for.
7. That dignity and integrity are very important to me, but they sure don’t come easy!!!
8. To seek after and ask for what I want unabashedly!
9. To ask for help…which can be achieved by simply ASKING FOR HELP.
10. That having a good time is absolutely mandatory. Absolutely. Mandatory.
11. That love comes in many different forms and to appreciate and cherish them all.
12. That my life is full of love and beauty and I really have it good!
13. That dancing is an essential part of the human experience…we should seriously dance every day!!
14. Exercise makes me feel better…and better…and better still.
15. To be completely honest, even if it makes me seem ridiculous. Hence, I am now ridiculously honest.
16. A piece of paper does not define a relationship – respect, love, kindness and acceptance do.
17. There are some roads in life you need to walk alone, and “the way on is the way out…”
18. To take more bubble baths and indulge in more books!
19. That not being affected by the judgments and opinions of others comes from true self confidence and deep conviction about my own choices , NOT insolence or a cavalier attitude.
20. That friends are the best gifts of all.
21. To embrace divine emptiness rather than run away from it. The cup needs to be emptied before it can be filled again. It’s uncomfortable but it’s purposeful.
22. That kids have a contagious joy that can help to heal you when you’re broken.
23. That being healthy doesn’t mean giving up chocolate!
24. To LIGHTEN UP and just laugh at myself.
25. To be grateful for every single experience.
And on that note…I will leave you with a poem called The Guesthouse by Rumi that speaks for itself…and me….
The Guest House
This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.