At the end of December, I was considering doing a big long New Years post, but decided to take a different approach this time around (based on the above conclusions) and start putting my resolutions into practice and writing about them afterwards.
I can readily admit that another one of my personal flaws (this is turning into a confessional!) is having a lot to say about things, but not always moving from the realm of thought to the to the realm of action. Enter New Year’s resolution #1:
To act on what is important to me and think less about it!
I am often “stuck in my head”, and I want to change that up. I’ve come to realize that thinking all the time and constantly ruminating has only served to make me anxious and more paralyzed as it pertains to making changes. As it pertains to writing depressing and dark poems, being able to check off most of the those little boxes in the “Are You Depressed?” questionnaire at my doctor’s office, and spending vast amounts of time staring out windows, I’m winning!
Taking action and getting outside for a walk or run or to a yoga class gets me into my body and closer to what matters! The first RESOLUTE ACTION I took this year (as soon as I was finished vacationing and catching up on missed work) was to purchase a rec centre membership. I was taught how to use the gym circuit so I can work out properly too, which will make a big difference. Also included in my membership are multiple drop in classes for yoga, Zumba, and Pilates, all of which are great for strengthening my core and getting me limbered up. There’s also the pool, hot tub, and sauna! I can get a nice hard work out in and then cool down in the pool, and detox in the steam room. It’s fantastic! I’ve gone twice in the last week, and in the 4 weeks to come (before I relocate YET AGAIN to a different town), I’m going to keep myself acting (exercising) instead of thinking, and get my butt to the rec centre as often as I can!
Which brings me to New Year’s resolution #2:
To connect powerfully and profoundly to my body .
I have spent years being completely disconnected from my body…and not just disconnected, but ashamed and hateful towards it. I have worked through most (not all) of that shame and hatred, and started to connect over the last 2 years, but I still feel that I could be “in” my body more tangibly and that the connection needs to be stronger and more complete.
I believe that practicing yoga is a very fundamental part of that body/mind/heart connection. I have done a few hot yoga classes over the last month, and although my 60-day trial expired, I will be deepening my practice in 2012. The next on my “to-buy” list is a few good yoga books so that I can learn to really understand the principles of it and how to strengthen my practice. I also want to read about breath, because this is one of the most important parts of practicing yoga and connecting with your body – breathing properly! Being a somewhat anxious and over-thinking person, I don’t always breathe deeply and in a connected way. Even with almost 2 years of having practiced yoga (still a beginner), I haven’t mastered the art of breathing!
New Year’s resolution #3:
Learn to breathe myself to life and health.
I need to find that good breath, the one that goes really deep and cleanses you all through the day and night. I know without a doubt that this one resolution in itself will have a powerful impact on me in 2012.
So, to sum up the RESOLUTE ACTIONS I tend to take this year, I will…
Act on my thoughts.
Think less about acting.
Connect to my body.
Breathe deeper and deeper.
I know I can do it. I know I want to change my brainwaves and fight a good fight. I know that 2012 is going to be an absolutely amazing year for this girl.
Thanks for reading, friends. Feel free to hold me to the contents of this post!
(still 172 lb, btw!)