Deb – I’m Alive. :D

Good Friends,

How I have missed you!¬† And I’ve given you ample opportunity to miss me too! ūüėĬ†¬† My 20 year high school reunion was great!¬† I lost 6 pounds while I was away.¬† I keep mentioning it because 4 of those pounds missed me too and came back to stay.¬† See?!¬† I KNEW everyone loved my ass!¬†

This week’s lesson is how to not gain weight while making 30 pounds of potato salad, 20 pounds of brown sugar baked beans, and 150 cookies that are partially iced:

Do Not lick your fingers.

Weight Loss Agenda:

I’ve been getting emails from PeerTrainer… a fairly interesting weight loss¬†site who emails you several times a day updating you on their diet drivel.¬†¬†Its been hard to keep up with reading the emails, but the info is quite a good reminder¬†of what I’m putting in my mouth and why.¬†¬† One interesting concept was¬†“if you are about to quit, you are probably on the brink of a breakthrough” to which I laughed and thought to myself… well, 120 mini chocolate chips can’t be wrong! hahaha..

Aside from the temptations that litter my kitchen, there are new food rules afoot in my house thanks to PeerTrainer.   Reason:  PT told me it is impossible to change everything all at once.  Good point PeerTrainer!  (and only half in jest)  So, their suggestion is that I start one new change every 2 weeks (or every week) and essentially change what I buy, eat, including the frequency, or completely deleting foods from my diet.   For instance, this week I decided that Nutella is a treat.   Not a right.  Not a healthy delight.  Not a nutty substitute for my nobby nemesis peanut butter.  It is a TREAT.  Therefore, I have decided to buy a SMALL jar  every 2 months.  Told the kids, removed the impaled toys from my face, and went on with life.  A healthier person.  

Another turning point, friends!  My first food rule РI have weaned myself off granola bars.  In a weak moment, I looked at the overflowing bin this morning (knowing that I would be paying for my lunch otherwise) and I felt twinge of smug hungriness as I turned up my nose and exited the kitchen.  Dear compatriots, I do not eat granola bars.  It is a rule.

So, many good things to post about.¬† One confession.¬† I’m a single mom.¬† Whenever I daydream about the “skinny me” its always me having tons of energy being a single mom and being able to get it all done AND have enough energy for a round of tennis after the day is done.¬† Well,¬† in one of PeerTrainer’s articles about self-sabatoge, I realized I really really hate this particular image of “skinny me” – yet its always the one I think about when it comes to succeeding.¬† No WONDER I haven’t really done anything rockumentary.¬†¬†¬† I don’t want to be single mom with enough energy to scale¬†tall buildings in a single bound and scour the earth endlessly¬†for¬†lost socks villians to fight.¬† My dream isn’t even¬†to be married (been there, done that).. but to get and be¬†skinnier with someone I¬†love… swoon baby swoon.¬†¬† So, Ms. Self Sabotage…. consider yourself hitched to the dreamiest Mr. Sensitive Sexy Personal Trainer and lettuce¬† watch the pounds drop off.¬†

Ending the post, I’m hanging in there.¬† Making some really good food choices and having fun.¬† This weekend¬†my son¬†WON!!! a tennis racket, so now we all have rackets and we practiced soft lobs in the back yard tonight.¬†¬† Eventually, we will progress to learning overhand serves at the school yard as well.¬† I know there’s a tennis court around here somewhere too.¬† Bikes are sidelined for the moment – my free bike has turned into a camel-toe moment.¬† I need a shorter bike.¬† If anyone knows of a bike that would fit¬† (yep, you guessed it) a 5 foot 2 person, I’m in the market!!¬†¬† Hybrid, slightly prissy, basket in the front.¬† ūüôā

Beauty

Amber — feeling light

Just a quick update!

I¬† somehow managed to make it down to 173 lb this week.¬† YAY!¬† I worked out EVERY day this week, either at work in the gym or at yoga.¬† I have also been eating very healthily for the entire week…but, of course, I let myself have a few treats too!¬† I am a taurus…not one for self deprivation!¬† I feel great today.¬† I feel light and powerful and proud of myself.

I definitely think the July 15 goal of 170 is possible!¬† I’ll be working security at the Vancouver Folk Festival that weekend (haha, I know!), and I’m hoping to be all decked out like a hippy and looking/feeling gorgeous in the summer sun.¬† The VFF is one of my favorite yearly music events, and this time I get to enjoy all of it for free because I landed this volunteer gig, thanks to a friend. I LOVE my life!

By September 15, 2010 (the day before I leave for Europe), I am hoping to be at 160!!!¬† Yes yes yes yes!¬† I can do it!¬† I can’t even imagine how good it will feel to revisit some of my favorite European cities 40 lb lighter than the last time I went in 2006!¬† Wow.¬† That’s definitely something to look forward to.¬† ūüôā

Thanks for all the support and love.

Here’s a quote that inspired me this week:

“Oh soul,
you worry too much.
You have seen your own strength.
You have seen your own beauty.
You have seen your golden wings.
Of anything less,
why do you worry?
You are in truth
the soul, of the soul, of the soul.‚ÄĚ

Rumi

Over’n’out

Amber

Great Article

How Can I Stop My Weight Loss Self-Sabotage?.

Was supposed to post this week… got sidetracked by child bending car key, subsequent taxi and bus fares, lots of walking (:D), pliers, lots of praying,¬† bent key working, but not finding spare key and hardware stores¬†do not¬†have key¬†type¬†for my make of car, only dealership, finding dealership, praying for non-exhorbitant cost of new¬†key.¬† ¬† Fun times… walking is good.¬†¬†

Even though posting has gone by the wayside, following the food plan¬†has been good!¬†I finally lost some weight, fit into some pants 1 size down, and thinking of taking some of my pants to the consignment store.¬† While in Calgary I went to the thrift store (oh so cheap I am) and bought a very snazzy top for $14.99 (brand new).¬† It is teal, has silver and teal sparkles on it, and doesn’t fit.¬† It is my goal to fit into it by Christmas 2010.¬† Its one of those semi-tight “you can see my abs”¬†tops.¬† My¬†upper tummy¬†is definitely one of the most “sensitive” areas I have about my body.¬† I used to have flat abs.¬† I used to have a slight 6 pack, even at size 12.¬† I’d¬†like that back please.¬†¬†

Sequin top

In other news, I got a bike from God this week.  Soon to be on track with more exercise.  Lost 6 pounds on vacation.  Yay!

My Bike

Eating okay.¬† Details are lost to followup this week due to key agenda.¬† One fabulous outcome:¬† After eating not much of anything during vacation¬†week I came back to my cupboard packed with 100 calorie snacks and Chewy granola bars and thought “YUK”.¬† I haven’t eaten a granola bar since.¬† Maybe this is my week of freedom! ūüėĬ† The amount of “packaged” food really turned my stomach and last night night at 1:50 a.m. I was cutting up celery and cucumber for the week… not willing to succumb to¬†“the man”.¬†¬†

What I have to rally the troops is¬† “Keep It Up”.¬†¬† Though the battle is all up hill, rejoice that there isn’t room to¬†fall down on the job.¬†¬† Though you are being pushed and pulled through many trials, be thankful you can fit through the holes… getting stuck is not an option.¬†¬†¬† If you find yourself frustrated by other people’s requests or your own expectations, bulldoze a new trail that works for you… this is your journey, not a PC namby-pamby lets make it work for everyone daycare philosophy.¬†¬†¬† If you find it hard to believe in yourself, believe anyway.¬†¬† Heck, if you don’t have kids, someone has to listen to you…. it might as well be you.¬†¬† If everyone is pushing you down, give em the finger… and then get back up and show em who’s boss.¬† The words ” I don’t care what you think, I’m going to do it” should be your best friend.¬† Why?¬† Because you are going to do it¬†…whether it takes 2 months or 2 years… if you don’t give up on the plan, you’ll get there!!¬† I’m not letting you get away with “well, maybe”.¬† You are not allowed to give up.¬† PERIOD.¬† Do it until it’s done.